Happy Birthday Brother!

Today is my brothers birthday!  It is still hard to realize that he is now 27!  Even crazier for me to think I will be 21 next month!  I hate to think sometimes that life seems to be going by way too fast.  I was always the girl who never wanted to get rid of things in my room because I hated change.  I have gotten better since then, but I'm still secretly not the biggest fan on change.  I love making new memories, but it would be so nice to be able to relive any good memory you wanted at any time (now i'm not talking about just thinking about one...actually going back in time and experiencing the same way again). Well sometimes I actually miss Chris and I living under the same roof, and him driving me crazy.  I miss being scared at night from thinking a monster would come and get me.  But I would always keep my door open to look over in Chris's room, and see him tell me "I'm right here.  Nothing is going to happen,  Your ok.  Chris being a big brother entitled him to pick on me, look after me, and not show much affection.  So of course when he would act like a loving brother it took me by surprise (but I loved every minute of it).  I think the moment we decided to change our actions was when he went into the army.  I always knew I would regret the way we acted if anything were to happen to him.  Long story short we have been through alot together.  He has taught me to be strong through anything, enjoy life to the fullest, be brave even in scary situations, and try to have a positive outlook on life no matter the circumstances.  I really couldn't have gotten any luckier by getting him as my big brother.  From the time I was born he has taken care of me, watched out for me, given scary talks to old boyfriends, played with me, comforted me, loved me, and been the best big brother I could have hoped for.  I love you Chris, and I would give up my life just for you to take one more breath.  I only hope I have been the sister you have always needed. 

Happy Birthday Bubba, your birth is definitely something to celebrate!

Church Camp

Wow...first off I can't believe I have been away for so long.  I really need to get better at that!  A week ago I returned from church camp.  I can't tell you how good it felt to be back again.  Taylor Christian Camp has always had a special place in my heart.  Alot of my childhood memories from 11 to 17 were from camp.  It broke my heart the years after when I couldn't come back.  This time was alot different since one of my best friends Keah and I were counselors for 3rd-5th.  We had 5 amazing little girls!  Unfortunatley 2 of them got sick and had to go home.  But other then that the girls were such great listeners, and a blast to be around!  Thank you girls for any amazing week!  I miss ya'll already!  Here are few pictures of our amazing cabin!

These girls were hilarious!

And I couldn't have done it without my partner...Ms. Keah!

I had a great week, and can't wait to do it again!  I will try to post more pictures later!

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I'm Loving...that me and Brandon are going to see Becky and Maysen tomorrow!

I'm Loving...that me and my amazing friend Keah are going to be counselors for 5 little girls at the church camp we went to as kids next week!

I'm Loving...that Teen Mom is back on with the original cast!  I wish I could stay away from reality TV, but it's so addicting haha.

I'm Loving...there is only 2 more days of work while we are short one person.  Next time I go back to work I won't have to run around like a chicken with its head cut off!

And of course I am always Loving...Brandon and Kaiser :)

Childhood Friends...The Best Kind :)

First off...wow I really need to get on here more!  Lately I have barely been able to, or I'm just too tired to do anything.  Ahhh the joys of working all the time.  Well even though this is late I thought I would still share it with ya'll.  So a week or two ago me and Brandon were going to get some food for Kaiser.  While we are in the parking lot someone starts honking at us.  My first thought is "Oh gosh Brandon has made someone mad since he was driving".  But when I looked up I was so happy to see it was my best friend since 1st grade waving at me with a big smile on her face.  It seemed like we hadn't talked in forever, and I couldnt remember the last time we spent a day together.  All through our school years we were inseperable, mostly junior and senior year.  But sometimes life gets in the way, and you lose contact with people that mean the most.  That's pretty much what happened to us.  We went off to different schools.  She got pregnant with twins.  So we began to have less and less time to be what we use to be.  Of course it broke my heart that I felt like I was losing my best friend.  Sometimes I thought it would really never be the same again.  I would cry about it, but I tried to think it would play out the way it was meant to.  So when I saw her two weeks ago you couldnt imagine how happy I was that I could finally spend time with her.  It made it even more special she had felt the same way I did about our whole situation.  So we ended up talking in the parking lot for 2 1/2 hours..standing in the middle of open spaces.  I'm sure it annoyed some people, but I barely noticed.  After that we finally realized why not just go back to someones place instead of standing out here.  We ate, talked, laughed about nothing, and of course relived all of the random things we use to do.  It really felt like it use to be this time.  Other times it seemed like we just lost too much time together.  But this reassured me that we will always be the same..I don't think either one of us will ever give up on our friendship!

Fill in the Blank Friday!

1. The last thing I ate was...Some amazing nachos at Chili's, and a sinful Molten chocolate cake with Becky and Maysen!

2. The next thing I'd like to eat is...Something I would rather not like to think about since I feel like I'm going to burst!

3. The best things...Are the simple things!

4. Something that makes me supremely and utterly happy is...Family, Kaiser, friends, and my amazing boyfriend Brandon!

5. Sports are... Something God did not want me to have talent in haha

6. I miss..Alisan.  It makes it even harder this time of year when its her birthday, and marks a whole year since I lost my amazing sister in law!

7. Right now I am...Cuddling on the couch with my personal stuffed animal...Kaiser!

The Simple Things!

This is the first time I'm linking up with Jesslyn Amber in the Simple Things!  And also the first time I have ever linked up, so hopefully I can get this right :)

I'm so excited Jesslyn started this link.  It's so easy to only think of the negative in your day.  I think this will really help me stay more positive and notice The Simple Things :)

Here is what I have appreciated this week:

- Cuddling with Kaiser.  No matter how hyper he might be before bed all I have to do is lay down, and he is right there next to me :)

-Brandon being able to make me laugh til I cry even after 5 years

-After having a bad week at work Dr. Stuart surprised me with 2 Dr. Peppers, and a strawberry shortcake ice cream bar.

-Cooking with my wonderful mother!

-Hearing Maysen say she loves me.  This little girl melts my heart!

And those are the amazing blessings I get to experience every week!  How lucky am I?!

Alisan Eddie

I have been dreading tomorrow for a year now.  June 19th would have been Alisan's 26th birthday.  Who was Alisan your probably wondering?  She was my sister in law, who was taken away too soon a little less then a year ago.  I believe I met Alisan in 2007 when her and my brother started dating.  There was really nothing you couldn't love about her.  My entire family grew very close to her.  Even though Alisan was 15 she started having medical problems.  When she was 16 her kidney was found to be the problem.  Her mother donated one of her kidneys.  From then on Alisan had to be on medcation.  By the time I had met her she had already been in countless surgeries.  The hospital was usually her second home.  But the only thing I ever saw out of her was a smile or a laugh.  She was so positive, and I never once heard her complain.  Later on in 2010 she had been sick with several serious viruses, and developed cancer from medicine.  I still never seen it coming.  She was smaller then me, but seemed to be one of the most invincible people in the world.  When I came to see her 2 weeks before she passed I never expected to see what I saw.  Like Alisan she was still just trying to laugh, smile, and joke as much as she could :) I'm so glad I came that day, gave her one last hug, and hear her say "I love you" one last time.  She left us on July 29th 2010.  I will never forget this special girl, and all the love and joy she brought to my life.  Here are a few pictures in the short time I knew her.

Chris and Alisan didn't ever get married.  They were together for 3 1/2 years.  Chris was planning on proposing when Alisan got out of the hospital and was feeling better.

I feel so lucky to have had you in my life.  I always wondered what it would be like to have a sister.  You let me experience that with you.  Forever sisters, forever in my heart.  I love you Ali. 

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